Keeping a positive head.

"Live like you are dying" doesn't mean that you would live with depress emotions.

Rather,

In my humble opinion, it means that you should keep a positive head and keep on cherishing the people around you.

And to cherish them is including not to force your desires and wishes on them.

But rather,

To be able to be happy when they are happy.

To be able to support them whenever they need you although it is really contradict with what you always wanted to.

To love them, though they hate you.

To be kind to them, though they hurt you really bad.

To always be honest with them, though you know that they will hate you for that.

To believe in them, though you heart is full of unsures and anxieties.

And to always keep a positive head, though your next seconds are fulls with the unknowns and countless possibilities.

:D

Mangaka to be?

I would now officially start on my training in drawing.

Gonna get some sketch books and start sketching!

Hopefully I would be a mangaka like Oda Sensei and Hiro Mashima!

XD

Oda Sensei !

Hiro Mashima!

Keep on moving forward!

Mae ni susume!!!

XDDD

Trust.

Trust.

Believe.

Faith.

I'm working on myself to get a grip on them now.

I need to trust them, him, I just need to.

I seriously didn't saw this coming.

I wouldn't have thought that I would be so insecure like this.

It shaken me really much until I lose my composure, until I lose my words, until I'm just talking nonsense all day yet there are so much thing I want to spill out.

I need to trust him. I just need to.

I need to trust them, I just need to.

Believe in him, MaO.

Believe in them, MaO.

Have faith in him, MaO.

Have faith in them, MaO.

For him and them are the best gift that you ever had in your entire life.

For him and them are the most important people in my whole life.

I treasure him and them.

I cherish him and them.

My life have no worries when he and they are around me.

He and them have given me the brightest moments in my life, more than I begged for, more than I actually deserve for.

For him is your first brother.

For him and them are the best of the best friends that you've ever got.

だから、

I just need to trust them.

Then my life should be alright.

I'm so glad that Allah had given me the chance to meet them. I'm so damn glad.

Thank you Allah. Thank you.

Alhamdulillah.

:)

No more repeated glances to the past.

Keeping on moving forward and not losing to the waves of time is all I know.

I always trust and believe in my friends and my family.

I believe that things will come when they will. I have faith in every life-shaking tests that Allah give to me.

And I would certainly accept them with a glad heart because I truly believe that I will definitely become a great human if I do overcome them all.

Ganbatte MaO!

A vow, a pledge, and a new hope.

I vow that,

from now onwards,

whatever words will come out from me,

will be utterly and completely true and nothing else could be truer than they are.

I will act honestly, I will speak and feel what my heart wants to, and I will response without hesitation to whatever coming at me.

With this, I hope nothing more would be concealed, nor nothing more would be deeply hidden.

Though I truthfully expected the same things in return, I must admit that I don't have the power to control and precisely obtain what my heart desires from the people around me.

If things turn out to be what they should not, and I totally do not have any reign nor minds to turn things the other way,

I must be able to accept things as they are even though this heart is crying a thousand rains and wanting to leap out and break away from this body,

and shout out to the world what it is demanding for, and what it is searching for.

If tremendous efforts were already being done, and I could not do nothing more,

I would give myself to Allah, putting my utmost trust and believe to Him, and have unshakable faith on Him to guide me towards the living that would lead me to both the happiness in the world and the hereafter.

In the hope of wanting to lead and live my life with no regrets, with no griefs, with no hesitations, with no fool assumptions, with no lies, with no wasted times, with no wasted efforts, with no give ups,

with no regrets, with no regrets, and again with no regrets,

I hereby written this vow for you,

MaO.

ARIGATOU!

You always disappeared, and didn't even leave me a single memento.

I've always hated...

...that about you.

But...

If you had left something behind,

Then I probably never would have been able to move from that spot.

You must have...

...seen through that part of me.

Thank you, チャンチン。

I always--

Like that about you.

Arigatou!